[Blerd Bash Update]

My hair is messed up, but I had so much fun!

I had so much goddamn fun! I cried on the way home when it was over. I did not know how forgiving being in a place like that is. No one judged me. No one looked at me weird. I got to talk about video games, anime and play a few video games of my own. I got to sit and watch Twitch streams and not feel like I’m doing something wrong.

I felt like I was home. I can’t wait to come back to that next year. I want next year to be here already. I need to figure out what I’m going to wear next year.

There were so many times in the day though where I wanted to leave. Where I wanted to go home. I kept going back to my car. I was getting overstimulated quite a bit, but I stuck it out. Everyone was just so nice. Around 8 is when the families with their kids left to go because now, they were serving alcohol. They turned the Tekken Tournament section into a dance floor, and we line danced and had a good time. I wish I could do that every day.

I went alone but I wouldn’t change any of it for anything in the world. I had so much fun. I hope that’s not the only fun I have this year. I couldn’t stop smiling. I got so many compliments on my cosplay costume. I even got hit on by a bunch of people. I felt seen. I haven’t felt that way in such a long time. I made alterations to my cosplay costume, and it worked. I was afraid to take my costume apart, but it came out great. There was a lot of fear behind all of what I did but I told myself I was going to do something, and I did it.

I’m getting back to my old self. Making plans and following through. I can’t wait to see them again next year.

Thank you, H.A.G Entertainment. 

[2B or Not 2B] | Cosplay

My cosplay costume

It’s too short and it’s been a long time since I’ve used a sewing machine. I have no idea how I could make alterations to this. If I could I would sew some shorts inside of the skirt.

I couldn’t bend over in this if I wanted to. People would be able to see my tonsils. I have to figure something out. The thigh-high stockings are too tight and they roll down. That’s an easy fix.

[Blerd Bash]

I’m looking forward to Blerd Bash that’s happening in Parma on the 8th of April. I’m even dressing up in costume. I’ve never done something like this before but I’m stepping out of my comfort zone. There will be crowds, noise, weird smells and textures. I’m going to have on a costume so I can try and fit and or not stick out as much.

I’m going as 2B from Nier Automata. The sword came today. I’m still waiting on my costume and wig. I’m thinking about switching out her hair for an afro wig instead. I’m trying to make this my own style. So far, I’ve only seen pictures of people dressed up just like her but never tried to step outside of that. Either way, I’m going. And if I have to take the kids to that, I will. Noone is going to stop me from going.

I’m scared but that’s because it’s something new. I’m going to do my best to make sure everything goes smoothly as possible.